Friday, December 8th, 2023, 12:44

Mood: Satisfied

I don't have, like, anything of real note going on with my life these days, so here is just a list of things lately.

I saw May December and I recommend it to anyone who found themselves interested in the Letourneau case.

It's almost my daughter's 11th birthday, which really doesn't make a whole lot of sense to me because I am still pretty young myself. To be fully entrenched in the reality that I have a tween, who is starting middle school next year, who will be driving in five years, is just so bizarre to reconcile with. Here we are: the circle of life and shit. I would trade her for absolutely nothing. Listening to her speak and watching her consciousness emerge over and over again beats every single thing I could ever experience in this life.

I'll be in Madison towards the very end of the year to see my best friend, my parents and, for the first time in the US in several years, my grandmother. I did see my grandmother last year when we visited the Philippines, but only briefly. This year, she has moved to the US; before, she was only really coming here now and then on special occasions.

Everybody has fucking covid now lmao. Not Pat or I or Siren, but just about everyone else, really.

I'm about to cook vegan chickpea mac and cheese in the rice cooker.

I need to start getting it together to get gifts for my immediate family. Siren is getting to be where she just wants cash for the holidays and her birthdays and that's fine by me, although I think it should start coming lately with some money minding skills training. I don't know what I'm going to get for Patrick. For myself, I'm getting a lip ring that I almost certainly will immediately get sick of but I want anyway.

As it sits, my life is simple, and still. It won't always be. There seems to be an inevitability of catastrophe and like some kind of ending just around the corner, at every turn. But that's not happening for now. I want to cultivate a life I long for when I need to long for something.